I am not okay

Right now I am going through something that I just can’t talk about publicly.

However I can still write without talking about it.

Jelly Roll has a new song out called I am not okay. I want you to read some of lyrics before we keep going.

“I know I can’t be the only one
Who’s holding on for dear life
But God knows, I know
When it’s all said and done
I’m not okay
But it’s all gonna be alright
It’s not okay
But we’re all gonna be alright
I’m not okay
But it’s all gonna be alright”

He released this song in June of this year. With that being said I have listened to it several times. But, Yesterday when I listened to it I broke down at these words. Jelly Roll is saying exactly how I am feeling and I can’t even find the words to tell anyone how I am feeling.

Nobody ever said we have to be okay all the time. Things happen in life that we can not control but that doesn’t mean we have to be okay.

We can break down

We can be sad, angry, scared, feel alone, feel vulnerable, and be just not okay.

We have all of these emotions inside of us. Sometimes I think we have them because we can learn more by having all our emotions rather than just Happy all the time.

I mean take the move Inside out for example (yes it’s a little kids Disney movie but its good)

it is about the emotions in this little girls mind and what happens when they don’t all work together. If you haven’t watched it you should.

So for now I will feel every emotion i have in a a rotating cycle and I will keep writing because that is what I know how to do.

I want to leave you with 1 verse, when researching I found this one and it fits perfectly

“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”
‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭12‬:‭9‬ ‭NIV‬‬

It is okay to not be okay because then Christ’s strength can work through us